So here i sit...

This class cost me almost 2 grand and i've hardly done anything all night, we talked to our group members after a super short lecture and now we're waiting for her to talk to us. The problem is that There's 6 groups so the other 5 groups have jack shit to do while we're waiting. things like this really make me appreciate the time i spent at citrus. Citrus had great, professional teachers that had a good grasp of their subjects. Here we've got temp teachers with different levels of competence. They actually fired all of their full time teachers in order to save themselves some money while we suffer. The other students are also total fucking morons, but that's a whole 'nother blog. (i got through this whole entry without my phone not having a word until blog)

Oh god

Sharing is Caring

I just installed μtorrent and I'm pretty sure I'm gonna stick with it. Azureus was awesome but it just hogs too much memory, right now μtorrent is taking up about 20 times less memory than Azureus does when it idles. before totally moving on though I want to immortalize my share ratio on the internet.

school sucks

I am not happy. I don't like devry and I don't like going there. so far the professors I've seen have not met my standards and their overall process is a pain in the ass. I really wish that I would have gone with ITT tech, I liked the environment much more. Even the students at devry just seem stupid. I want to drop out and go to ITT tech but my mom won't let me b/c it is more money and now I've already wasted time at devry. I hate it and I just don't to go there anymore :(

and it all comes crashing down

I don't know what to do anymore. I don't even know what the point is. it seems to me that diana and I just hurt each other more often than we're happy and I just don't know if this is going to work. I've never thought that I was good enough for her but I tried to be the person she deserved, maybe I just don't have that in me. I honestly can't imagine my life without her and when I do I just start crying. I'm so sick of this, I'm sick of feeling the way I do, thinking the way I do. I'm sick of everything. why can't I just be happy and have a normal life like everyone else?